I’m still sober.
I have been tested more in the last 36 hours than at any time since I decided to be sober. The sun, the pub, the holiday atmosphere,the ambience. This is classic
heavy drinking opportunity.
I said at the beginning of the blog that I was aiming for an attitude if mind that I didn’t WANT to drink alcohol. I proved to myself in the last 2 days that I’m far away from that utopia.
I do want to drink.
But I’m not going to for all the reasons we already know.
So. … I have been very active; today I ran 5k , swam in the
freezing cold sea , and went for a cycle ride. I have stocked up with AF drinks, but most importantly of all I have been very honest with j and k about why I cannot drink. I feel safer now . I think they would try to dissuade me if I went to drink, just as Mr Lily would.
I have noticed how drinking is ALL around me; every leaflet inviting us to a social event, an outdoor play, a garden tour, an art exhibition, either includes a glass of wine with the price, or advertises free wine on attendance… Everybody is drinking, on the beach, in the pubs, in their boats. The range of gin in sale in the (small) shop ifs extensive … I’m so aware of it all.
BUT , I can function in the early morning, I feel well , and I have added this (the 2017 version ) http://trescotriathlon.co.uk my list of sporting events I hope to undertake to raise money for prostate cancer .
Thank you for being my sober supporters. I don’t think I could face coming here and telling you all that I’d failed. You all keep me accountable. So today is day 154. I’m sober, and I will not drink tomorrow either