I have had a social weekend. I was out for dinner with family and a close friend on Friday, and last night I went to a party. It was an 18th birthday celebration, with a mix of young and (gulp) middle aged people, I have been extremely solitary and antisocial for the last few months, and I’m not sure that’s good for me. So I put on a frock, some lipstick and showed up clutching my Becks Blue lemon.
I’m really glad I went. I enjoyed myself, I saw some people I knew, and lots I didn’t, and it was a very nice, social, friendly not intimidating gathering. I didn’t stay late, partly because I’d left the puppy in his crate at home, partly because there was a lot of champagne flowing and I could really picture myself a few glasses down. But I’m so pleased I made the effort and didn’t chicken out at the last minute.
Someone pointed out to me, kindly, that I can’t change the past (ExP) , but that I can move on and reconnect with people, make myself a better future.
This morning I went for a walk with a very old friend of my family, she is in her 60’s and had been single since her very long standing marriage broke down. It was good to talk.
I have made an arrangement to meet with a fellow sober woman, who I ‘met’ over the Internet. I’m excited and really looking forward to that.
What have I learned from this weekend? That it’s probably time to make plans to see more people, do more things, make a more conscious effort to leave the past behind.