That elusive Year… almost complete. Today it is 52 weeks of continuous, uninterrupted sobriety: tomorrow, march 12th will one complete calendar year.
lots of reflection at the moment.
On where I was last year; on drinking and not drinking (I hosted a work party last night, and obviously bought wine … it occurred to me that I have come a long way – I never considered that I would drink any wine; and also made no progress at all, if I had started drinking i know I would have finished a bottle very quick )
12 months ago I was very unhappy, and felt very stuck. I couldn’t see how things could Get better. I couldn’t see an outcome that was acceptable to me and balanced all the responsibilities I had.
Quitting drinking, really a move of desperation, and one I was not at all sure I could sustain, has actually proved to be the gateway to resolution of a number of longstanding and previously insoluble problems. Don’t get me wrong, other things have come in their place – but current problems seem To be more within my power to resolve.
Today I treated myself by attending a flower arranging workshop in our local town centre. For £15 and an hour of my time I made the most beautiful huge bouquet of 🌺… feels like a self reward… and I learned the wonder of floristry scissors!
I had the most beautiful gift from my sober sister, so thoughtful and kind – with some engraved words and a small infinity charm … my youngest son and my closest friend also remembered the day…🙂
Lots of things to think about right now, but this weekend I’m just thankful; counting my blessings and being kind to myself …
Im back in the driving seat of my own life, and that’s a good place to be.