364 days: 52 weeks ….

That elusive Year… almost complete. Today it is 52 weeks of continuous, uninterrupted sobriety: tomorrow, march 12th will one complete calendar year.

lots of reflection at  the moment.

On where I was last year; on drinking and not drinking (I hosted a work party last night, and obviously bought wine … it occurred to me that I have come a long way – I never considered that I would drink any wine; and also made no progress at all, if I had started drinking i know I would have finished a bottle very quick )

12 months ago I was very unhappy, and felt very stuck. I couldn’t see how things could Get better. I couldn’t see an outcome that was acceptable to me and balanced all the responsibilities I had.

Quitting drinking, really a move of desperation, and one I was not at all sure I could sustain, has actually proved to be the gateway to resolution of a number of longstanding and previously insoluble problems. Don’t get me wrong, other things have come in their place – but current problems seem To be more within my power to resolve.

Today I treated myself by attending a flower arranging workshop in our local town centre. For £15 and an hour of my time I made the most beautiful huge bouquet of 🌺… feels like a self reward… and I learned the wonder of floristry scissors!

I had the most beautiful gift from my sober sister, so thoughtful and kind – with some engraved words and a small infinity charm … my youngest son and my closest friend also remembered the day…🙂

Lots of things to think about right now, but this weekend I’m just thankful; counting my blessings and being kind to myself …

Im back in the driving seat of my own life, and that’s a good place to be.

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  2. Congratulations Lily. You have done so well. I started my second attempt at sobriety two months after you in May 2016 but fell off the wagon, got back on numerous times. Your presence here in Sober land has always been an inspiration to me. You have been through so much yet still stayed strong. I think you are pretty amazing 😘😘😘

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  3. Congratulations and thanks for sharing. Sounds like you have found the beauty in life without alcohol to distort it. I am going through a different experience, grief. I lost my husband last May. It is a hard time. But your lovely optimistic post gives me hope…Keep persevering Lily!

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  6. woohoo. so well done, congrats lily!
    it’s true what “they” say … not drinking gets easier and easier, and while life in itself does not, drinking makes stuff only worse (and lethargic).

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  13. Amazing!! Not that I thought you wouldn’t get to a year but it’s such a landmark – going through all the major dates/seasons, etc!
    I’ve loved following your blog and your story so far – I know it’s not been easy (duh!) but you’ve been so so strong and I’m just so proud/inspired by your strength and resolve! Go lily! X

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