I’m doing my Step 4 stuff right now. It’s hard going, or it is when you do it thoroughly, and I’m struggling to pull out my anger, resentments and Shame …

In the middle of doing this I felt the overwhelming urge to write down all the reasons for self hatred I can allot to myself. It’s a grim list. But it’s also not very mindful and probably not a very accurate snapshot of who I am right now.

Then I wrote on another page … I am also

And this is that list…

• Brave
• Loyal
• Kind
• Compassionate
• Generous
• Truthful
• I have integrity
• Clever
• Resourceful
• Passionate
• Loving
• Hardworking
• Flexible
• Unselfish
• resilient
• creative

I’ll take that list. I actually believe that. I wrote it and I believe it.

I think that’s progress ?