I do not know what happens.
This morning I was ok. Not great because the current UK heatwave coupled with recent emotional disruption is played by havoc with my sleep, but ok.
It’s now 17.40 and I think I am going to explode with rage and frustration. Or is it fear ? Or something else …
but where does that sudden unmanageable emotional torrent come from?
And what the hell is it all about ?
Maybe someone can identify with overwhelming anger arriving out of the blue so that I feel like I hate EVERYONE in my path, my thoughts are completely uncontained and I feel like a fish wriggling on the end of a line.
I literally do not know what to do with myself except that I have to meet my partners in now 15 minutes …..
stressors in order of importance
- Son 1
- Too much to do
- No sleep
- Huge unexpected bills
- Practice managers resignation
- Developing conflict with partners re replacement
- My recovery path
- Son3s discordant noise in his piano lesson
- No time to do what I want