This morning a patient lost his cool with me. He told me to ‘Fuck off ‘ that he was going to “finish me off” and that I was a “cunt”. (My apologies for the language) he came at me angrily – he is about 5’11” and I am not that large …
I hate violence and have often felt super cowed by aggression. A year ago this episode would have both frightened and upset me – today it frightened me but I was not upset by it. I haven’t spent the rest of the day wondering if it was somehow my fault (it wasn’t) I haven’t worried about what the witnesses would think, I agreed immediately with the Police Constable who suggest I press charges.
In short I was not intimidated. Annoyed , cross even, but not intimidated… and that’s major progress.
This afternoon I feel good, almost brimming with confidence, full of optimism enthusiasm and the simple pleasure of being alive with so many opportunities in front of me !
On the back of my confidence and optimism,I’ve planned a Bumble date for New Years Day … taking the dog for a walk!!
Wish me luck 🤣